As the empty night is upon me, I wonder…

What have I done?
How could I deserve this?
I keep feeling pain and never release,
Did I really commit such a sin?

And as the moments pass and regression begins,
The thoughts and cringes come to mind.

I think of all the times I let people down.
I think of all the times I thought of myself.
All the times I should have done more
and all the times that I bailed myself out.

And after that I realize…

I know now why I suffer like this,
I am not as good as I would like to think I am.

I am sorry to all I can say sorry to.
I beg for forgiveness for the deeds I should not have done.
I plead for mercy for the acts I did for personal gain.

And I promise that from this day forward, I will be different.
Then tomorrow comes...


© Melt Magazine 2001